A sign, no sign. A wait, no wait.

I've barely started this TTC business and my brain already resembles a large hamster wheel.

• No side effects from the let.rozole. WooHoo! Wait. Does that mean it's not working? What if it's not working? Why don't I have side effects? Sh*&@t.
  
• My little operated on left ovary is measuring at a 7 cm volume. They like to see >4cm. Hells yeah. Wait. What if that means it's all cystic or something. Maybe it's too big? My overy is TOO BIG! Ahhhhh.
  
• It's CD6 and I'm still spotting. I'm usually done by CD4. Maybe I'm too stressed. Am I too stressed? I'm too stressed. Must. Lower. S-t-r-e-s-s. Guh.
  

I think distractions are in order. Preferably something invoving ice cream.

Feels like the first time...

Oh, di.ldocam. What can I say. I was so nervous for our very first encounter. The good news: my anxiety has dissapaited. The bad news: ouch.

It wasn't as awful as I had imagined though. Somewhat painful, like really low bad cramps when she *dug around* to find that shy left ovary. Seems that despite the surgery for the 9cm dermoid and the polyp that was taking over my uterus, I also have a rather large intramural fibroid and a 2cm cyst within other ovary. Gah. Who knew there was such a party in my reproductive ograns all this time.

However, I put in my time and am now the proud owner of 10 little let.rozole pills and a return appointment in 10 days. The countdown (before the countdown) begins....

CD1

It's CD1 of the first try with my body.
Scared!
Nervous!
Excited!

I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon where the OB, the dildocam, and I will get intimate. I'm a little nervous for my whooha to get that kind of action with a stranger. On CD2. But I'm also excited. To get past this first test, to get my hands on that Rx for baby makin' meds (right now the plan is let.rozole), to get this show on the road.

I'm so hopeful. And so scared to be hopeful.

A Medically Induced Hiatus

We were on the baby makin' train. I was excited. I started a blog. And then. Silence.
Reader's Digest Abridged Version:

J & S: Grrrr. Why does the OB office make us do all these "pre-pregnancy" tests and evaluations. Such a waste of time and money.

OB office: You will need to see a surgeon to address the large cyst on your ovary before we can move forward.

{tears}

{more testing}

{waiting for a surgery date}

Surgeon: We removed a 9 cm dermoid {hair! teeth! fat! I grow 'em good} from your ovary and a polyp from your uterus.

{more waiting}

OB office: cleared for inseminations.