baby grab bag

I don't know, just yet, exactly how I feel about all of the information that was discussed at our first meeting with Dr. IVF today. (side note: S just read this great article about introverts [poster child, raises hand], which explained many of my ticks and quirks, and which pointed out that, when asked about their feelings, it's not that introverts are keeping them from you, it's that they really don't know yet). So I don't know yet. But I'm getting there. And I'm so glad we went this morning.

At this point in the baby hunt, we're seriously considering 3 options: 1) run of the mill IVF (I mean really, can it please just be run of the mill, with no surprise growths that resemble a personal-sized watermelon) 2) IVF with someone else's donated frozen embryo(s) (thanks for the encouragement, Conception Chronicles!) 3) open adoption. They all have their obstacles and their scary bits and their undeniable benefits. But we're leaning toward #2. In fact we are OFFICIALLY ON THE DONOR EMBRYO WAITING LIST. I think I just got whiplash from all the forward motion.

But in the meantime....

I need a sonohysterogram so we can all learn more about the polyp and the fibroid that have everyone up in arms. Unfortunately, we found out today that the test has to be completed CD12-14. And it is currently 5:30pm on CD13 on the Friday before a long weekend. So another month of waiting. And then pending those results, we learn what additional procedures I need before they'll green light any form of IVF. That was the hardest part for me to accept today. The more waiting. And the idea that there is a very good chance no one in our house will be pregnant before the end of 2010. (even the cats are sterile at this point) But, did I mention, we are OFFICIALLY ON THE DONOR EMBRYO WAITING LIST. Which means, at some point, we are going to close our eyes, reach into the baby grab bag, and 9 months later pull out the best parting gift ever. I hope so.

ps
Despite the information overload, we actually both *really* like all of the staff (so far) at the IVF clinic, were incredibly impressed overall, and breathed a collective sigh of relief to be done with surly-dr-ob-of-the-iuis (and both asked in the car on the way home, why didn't we ditch Dr. OB after that first awful meeting in her office?). Lesson learned.